I have been thinking a lot about what I want in my life. Regarding partners, play, relationships, experiences..and all that jazz.
Current and past relationships, acquaintances and experiences with others have gotten me thinking about attraction and what does it for me.
I was hanging out with a few friends and we were arguing about whether or not I had a type....
I insisted and fought with them for hours regarding their theories until we did a comparison...
So...I might just have a thing for men in their 40s who have beards, are big in body size, look very gruff and are married...Every single D/s relationship, long-term play partner and the one vanilla relationship I've had, has confirmed this.
I was extremely puzzled by this for a few reasons....1) I fantasize about dancers/actors/musical theater people (no one specific) and 2) baby face boys always melt my heart
So I decided to figure out what the heck is wrong with me by having another discussion with a different friend.....
I have concluded I am either a) afraid of commitment (which I don't see how that could be the answer seeing how I am the one always ready to commit first) OR b) I have Daddy issues (which I also don't see because my father was fantastic and I still have great relationship with him)
The Conclusion?
Well...The reason for my attraction to these types of figures is the fact that I have many categories of attraction. They include: Personality, Physical, Intellect, Dominant and Interests. All of these categories are pretty self-explanatory so I will not describe them in depth.
Ideally I would love someone to fill every one of those categories. However, I have had no luck so far. I've been told I'm young and I will have my time. It is frustrating and disheartening at times. Sometimes my use of standards, in a general sense, is questioned. I am finding that a lot of my past relationships and partners have filled many of these rolls minus one or two which makes a BIG difference.
What does this mean for all you young dominant men and women that are probably not reading this blog? This post is just an awareness of my trends. Just because you are not 45, super smart and experienced doesn't mean you have no shot at all.
Well enough rambling...
Cheers!
Confessor Kahlan
Side Note: I am determined to get better at blogging....hopefully...I get distracted so easily.
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